of nothingness.

its only been a couple of days,
and im losing my mind!

yea, its fun catchin up w frens,
hitting a couple of ping pong balls,
but, sth's missing.
maybe the sense of purpose.

so i decided to start packing.

but for some reason,
i jst had to choose the hottest day of the week to do it.
u can only imagine
how cranky i was.

but it has nevertheless,
been the most productive day of the 3,
omg, it feels much much longer than that!
but there's still more to do.

im regretting all those shopping trips,
cos it sure is biting me back.
4 yrs is too long a time.

n i really really hope sydney replies soon,
cos there s so much to do,
but i can only do them once everyth s confirmed,
but it looks like, i might nt even go to usyd,
even if i was offered a place.
complicated.
sucks.
but that s reality.

and i should be grateful,
that i got accepted in any uni at all.
n dat my family has been really supportive in every way possible.
regardless.