dreams, grey and railway engines.

i had to say goodbye today
to one of my oldest frens in melb.

it was the first of many to come.

despite it all,
all the dramas, stories, and awkward bumps,
i think i will miss him.
i didnt think i will,
cos we ve grown apart over time,
but i was shocked myself,
when we said goodbye,
n i found myself saying,
ive gotta go, im late in meeting another fren,
simply bcos i was starting to well up
and needed an excuse to rush off.

ive always known that it was all abt to be very diff,
but it dint really hit me till friday,
when it all seemed more real,
now that im heading to canberra,
n not either canberra, sydney, or adelaide.

anyway,
ytd evening,
i decided to take a train down,
to meet a fren's newborn sister.
she s the cutest thing!
i hung arnd for awhile,
for some rnb, movie, dj heroes n uno,
it was heaps of fun.

but suddenly, the wave of emotions struck me,
when i got a call frm him hu was leaving tonite,
that life as i knew it was abt to come to an end.

i cant be alone for an evening without getting depressed.
how am i going to survive the first week or month,
or however long it takes for me to adapt.

maybe im being overly melodramatic.
ive been told that i tend to get overly emotional when things change.
and also that i am a drama queen.
well, i hope so.
maybe it ll be better than i can ever imagine it to be.

gahhhhh.
sorry im rambling again,
im bored.