the end.

today marks the end of another chapter in my life.

i tot i would be glad,

after the endless ramblings,

n loooooooooooooong waits for samples,

even looooooongggggggerrrrrrrr work hours and very early mornings,

oni to find results dint turn out the way it was supposed to,
i was very surprised to find myself tearing up at lunch today.

my summer hideout

It isnt only the last day for me,
it's also the last for my super who s goin to the states for 4 months,
n nerida hu got a better job.
so the whole lab had lunch togetha at metropolitan pub,

after a few laughs, a hearty meal n a couple of beers,
nerida gav a very touching lil goodbye speech.

n elena n myself had to giv one each as well.

it was soo touching n sweet,
i couldnt help but cry,

n i wasnt the only one.

after lunch,
susie, elena n i,
dreading the thought of goin bk to work,
decided to go for ICE CREAMMM!!!
weeee....

it was even harder when the end of the day reached,

n it was real goodbyes now.

elena teared up when i gave her a lil thank you card,
n we hugged, n hopefully, it's not goodbye, but ill see you soon!

ooo, susie's gona lemme windsurf on sunday!

since she s there evry weekend!!

lookin forward to sunday even more!

my own lil corner

where one too many spills occured

anw, it's been a really busy week.
both work n play wise.

the whole srikl bunch is bk.

so u can oni imagine....
we ve had a few meetups,

to catchup n laugh our heads off, kick kelvin's ass at naruto game on ps2!! =p

also,
we had a couple of girls night out!

with the dory n penguin!

which was nth but FUN!

all worries, stresses n troubles drowned in our lil sweet cocktails n ground shaking laughter.

summer break's ending now.

but im sure things will get better n better frm now on in.
well, at least i hope it will.

girls night out - part 1 at the chi lounge

lovestruck by the sexy little swine lotus

thank u so much girls,

for making the week much more bearable!

n im very much looking forward to more to come!

the other half of my summer hideout

girls night out - part 2 at match bar

the very happy me at the end of the night.

it's written in the sky tonight

Someone's Watching Over Me

by Hilary Duff

I found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
But something pulled me back,

the voice of reason , I forgot i had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it´s written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
no I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark,
I'll still believe

Someone's watching over me
I've seen that bright light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time,
and I won't be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment,
to my dreams

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true yourself and follow your heart

I like this song,

it makes me believe

especially in times like this.

im just...

im just tired and exhausted,
from all the work n studyin n worrying n stressing,
i need a break.
bleh.

anw, last nite b4 goin to bed,
i saw an ad abt the world's greatest shave.
hav always been interested in joining in the previous yrs,
but nvr took the time to register n all.

now im just looking at their website,
n im actually considering.
shaving my hair,
if i manage to raise the amount i target to .
hmmm....

should i ? should i not?

insanity, for sure,
but its all for a good cause,
n i figured,
it's gona b my last yr in melb anw,
so y not go all out, rite?!

call me crazy!

;)

you've got mail

so, after a tough day's work,
and successful one too, might i add,
(i think i managed to repair most of the previous damages! =D)
i came home,
checked my mailbox ,
and found that ive got a parcel at the post office to be collected.

while waiting for li sher to check out the dance schools,
i made my way to the post office.
the lady came out from the back with a really huge packaging,
i was like,
whoaa.. wat cud this be,
somebody must really love me!

i didnt even wait to reach home before opening it,
as i turned the parcel arnd,
i saw,
sender: gamsat preparation course.
i was like,
OMGGGGGG!!!
i reluctantly n very hesitantly opened the package,
only to find,
2 x 1500 pages (printed with long passages n more questions both front n bak) booklets.
GREAT!
as if i dnt hav enough to do.

those are materials for my crash course classes ill hav to attend this weekend!!
wat a dreadful friday 13th and joyful, full of surprises valentine's, huh?!
it wil be 6-9pm on friday, n 9am-6pm on sat n sun..
sigh,
a girl's gotta do wat she's gotta do to achieve her dreams, right?

at work,
i got a very shocking news,
numbers jst seem to love me.

the past week,
ive been working on 3 samples.
from mouse dissection, RNA extraction, genotyping of the tails, RNA purification, reverse transcription, PCR, more purification digests, run them on gels, collect and analyse data using densitometry.
yup, this really long, complicated to-do list,
took me a week to complete,
with only 3 samples.

today,
my dearest, beloved, elena,
told me,
mushira, uve got 108 samples, for one group of mice of the same age.
i tot, ok , i can get thru it,
to my horror,
she added, we have 6 age groups! n the younger ones, we ve got 216 samples each.
so altogether, ive got 972 samples to do all of the above,
in just 2 weeks.
(still gotta wait for d bloody enzymes)
somebody, help me!

however, she s trying to get steve (big boss) to hire me as a part-timer,
over the semester,
so that id actually hav time to finish the experiment,
n get the paper published n all.
so fingers crossed,
ill be getting paid!
n i wont hv to rush through all those samples in 2 weeks.

she was supposed to bring it up at the meeting we had today,
but steve was really mad,
n boy, was it one heated conversation they had,
with all the ideas being thrown about,
frustrations exposed,
very, very overwhelming.

ooo, ytd,
at work, everyone was soooo affected by the bushfires that had gone out of control all around melb.
hysterical, and worried,
everyone was on the phone, ringing up absolutely everyone they can think of.
i felt bad,
as i sat there just observing the chaos,
sighs of relief as those on the other end of the line answered,
and worried glances as they received news abt houses being burnt down,
relatives from whom no one has heard of.
owh wells.
thank god, everyone's alrite.

so, these are the highlights of my past coupla days!
exhilarating, aint it?
=S

ok, tennis now!
something fun, for a change =p

summer fun in the city

St Kilda Festival, baby!
so we headed down to the beach today,
for sum free music,
n sum summer fuN!

it was jam-packed,
especially the clubs and restaurants,
fitzroy st was closed off.
it was cool, really.

as we reached,

we first had lunch at tien tien.

we talked,
and laughed,
and sang
(well, i did, while the others tried very hard to pretend that they dont kno me)

'

as we sat outside,

we could see
ppl doin cool stuffs all along d street,
showing their one of a kind talents.

and by the beach,
there were stages of music,
of diff kinds of genre.

as we walked arnd to see wat there is,
it was nice.
it was easy, calm and relaxing.
d weather was really good, honestly, i was kinda worried dat it wud b kinda weird, considering all of us weren't very close in the first place,
but it turned out pretty well.it was really fun.

with sum really loud interesting music,
couples swing dancing by the beach,
extreme sports,
lil stalls selling really cute stuffs,it was diff n nice.
it was a really good day out.
we ended d day by going on d crazy roller,
i think dats wat its called.
OMG!

it was sooooooo crazy.
that crazy thing wouldn't just stop spinning.
n not oni does it spin, it spins in all directions,
up, down, left, right,
my feet even kicked the tree!
and siew chien's too!i think al got slapped by the tree!
i swear to god, i tot i was gona die!!!

afta abt 5 mins of screaming at the top of my lungs,
i was soooo relieved,
n nvr appreciated the ground so much b4!
n i think d rest felt the same way!
prob gona wake up w a sore throat tmr!
as we got off,
all were a lil pale.
well, nt really a lil,
A LOT!
everyone was so stoned n half dead on the way bk to d city.
but it was all worth it,in d name of good fun,
n for my dear fren, li sher!!! =p

we headed home,
n i felt good.
it was a nice end to the perfect weekend.

except for the fact that,
now, im wrecking my brains,
doing my analysis,
that i hav to show my super tmr.
n i dnt hv a clue!
n since this is a totally new, specially made up for my project experiment,
i hv absolutely no new resources,
there s no way i can copy off the internet. jst gotta come up w my own theory.

omg, help me!
i hope ill wake up tmr morn w more den js a sore throat,
prob a bigger brain,
or an answer to my experiment!
i sure wudnt mind!

*cross fingers

sleepless nights

the moon looks so preetiful tonight,

no sculpture can match its beauty.

the stars have finally decided to shine so bright,

there's no longer a need for the street lights.

and the cool breezy air adds perfection to this wondrous night.

although the streets are filled with rowdy drunken people,

each inventing a new language,

for which one has to be drunk to understand,

it is all fine,

on this exceptionally beautiful night.

im mumbling and ranting

and mumbling some more,

cos,

i cant sleep.

n im bored.

looking forward to tomorrow tho,

weather's predicted to b really good,

hopefully gud music by the beach,

n undoubtedly fun ppl to hang out w!

st kilda festival!

"the snow doesn't give a soft white damn whom it touches"

by E. E. Cummings

(i just love the way it sounds)

jazz makes me smile

no fancy words,
no deep thoughts,

no sad, soppy stories,

no complaints.

just,

jazz makes me smile.

as the music starts,

i feel myself being swept away,

of all the worries and stresses of life.

it takes me to a whole new, very unfamiliar yet peaceful.

For a moment,

nothing else matters,

everything else paused,

except for the only thing left is jazz.

Calming, mesmerizing, breathtaking, spectacular, beyond extraordinary,

all summed up by one word.

jazz.

so what's with all the jazz?

yvett johanson and the joe ruberto trio at bennetts lane.

after a long, stressful, busy n tough week at work,

boy, has it been long, stressful, n busy!

li sher and i headed down for a lil jazz action at bennetts lane.

you hav no idea how much,

ive been looking forward to it the whole week!

it was a very much needed break frm d endless work n study routine.

we were later joined by siew chien n al,

as we waited for the music to start,

we talked, took photos, had drinks,

all in all,

was casual, fun n nice.
then came along yvett and her awesome,

out of this world, indescribable, breathtaking band.
the pianist was soooo cute, (as in teddy bear cute)

he was practically bouncing up n down while playing.

i swear to god,

i was in loveeeeee!!!!

he was sooooo good!!!

besides yvett's powerful voice,

joe's cute and lively performance,

there was michael on the bass and andrew ( i think) on the drums.

boy, were they something.

best part of all,

they were really enjoying themselves.

they were really into it,

they were playing for the love of it,

n as they played each song,

it was as if they were caught in the beat,

in the melody, in the simple,

yet true n straightforward lyrics.

they were all about the jazz.

with entertaining company,

way beyond words fantastic music,

it was a really fun, lovely, relaxing night.

what more could a gal ask for,

but for all that jazz.

l'arte d'arrangriasi

Have you ever felt trapped,
that all aspects of life was ganging up on you,
n with every step forward you try to take,
it just pushes against you even harder,
making it even harder to breathe.
When it feels like you've been cornered,
and there's no way out.

This is the "Instructions for Freedom" from the book I'm currently reading, "Eat, Pray, Love" by Elizabeth Gilbert.

1. Life's metaphors are God's instructions.
2. The day is ending. It's time for sth that was beautiful to turn into something else that is beatiful.
3. With all your heart, ask for grace, and let go.
4. With all your heart, forgive him, forgive yourself and let go.
5. Let your intention be freedom from useless suffering.
6. Watch the heat of day pass into the cool night.
7. When the karma of a relationship is done, only love remains.
8. When the past has passed from you at last, let go. Then climb down and begin the rest of your life. With great joy.


As I first read it through,
and I thought to myself,
how cool is this?
finally, someone has taken the time to write down the answers to our questions,
the instructions to life.
a step-by-step manual to freedom.

Then it occured to me,
that we can have pages and pages of what-to-dos,
a timelines and guidance for life written on pieces of papers,
whole sets of instructions bounded into a book,
topping the bestseller charts,
and still we would not know the answer,
to life, to freedom, to happiness.

It's simply because,
we're always looking for sth more,
a greedy bunch we are,
and I've gotta say,
I'm no different.

l'arte d' arrangriasi,

so melodic,
so beautiful,
so deep,
and it simply means,
"to make something out of nothing"

to me, this is all we need.

l'arte d'arrangriasi

how are you?

three very common words,
often said after the casual hello,
n followed by a response, along the lines of "I'm good, thank you and you?"

but really,
do we mean it when we spell out these words?
do we believe when the other says it's all good, everyth's fine when there are 1000 different things running thru his/her mind?
y do we ask it?

maybe small talk,
maybe it's become a habit,
i dont know,
i dont hv anyth against it,
i say it al the time,
but after a really bad day,
n i meet a casual friend hu asks you,
how are you?
what can you say, but I'm fine.

ok,
im rambling and emo-ing,
cos as of rite now,
i can think of so many diff reasons contradicting what I js said to a friend of mine,
I met just 5 mins ago.

i woke up this morn, excited to go to work,
after a week off
only to find that my specs was broken,
I dnt kno wat happened,
I dnt kno how but all I kno is that it is.
So I frantically searched my drawers for a spare one,
afraid of being late for work.
Thankfully, I've got an extra pair,
but it's giving me a massive headache.

i went to work, n d lab was sooo stuffy n stinks,
cos dear, dear sebastian decided to jst clean the septic tank, simply because!
imagine rotten food left in the fridge for a week, plus sulfur smell
yup, that's hw d smell was, times 1000!!!
trust me, im not exaggerating.
all of us immediately left the lab,
cursing at sebastian.
followed by laughters of cos,
but boy! we cudnt get rid of the smell till abt noon!

i messed up the experiment,
(yes, again... well, sebastian was talkin to me, n i cudnt concentrate. well, my fault for nt stopping for awhile),
nervous, scared, overwhelmed by guilt n in disbelief that I repeated the same mistake,
here's wat my super says to calm me down,
"If it makes you feel any better, it's expected of you."
?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!

on my way home,
two words raced my mind,
n nothing else.
"I cant, I cant, I cant!"
today, Ive decided that there's no way Im gonna do research for the rest of my life.
which then occured to me,
this would b motivation enough for me to study for gamsat.

n then i was home.
consoling myself to jst put it all behind,
n prove her wrong the next day.
i opened my mailbox,
as I was abt to head for the library,
i found my corrected essays,
i did better than d previous task,
but it wasnt enough.
n after realizing the torture of working in a corner of the lab,
the stress jst keeps piling on!

as i reached d lib,
i sat down at the lawn jst outside,
to unwind jst a lil before i start wrecking my head again,
as I got up to head inside,
I stepped on some ooey, gooey thing which I think is vomit,
after cleaning it up,
I gave up.

exhausted, drained, dead beat tired,
the lift decided not to work today.
after a walk from d library,
although normally is not far,
felt like an endless road,
n d relief i felt when I reached the building's front door,
was simply crushed,
when I found out I had to walk up another 3 flights of stairs.
usually I dont mind.
but,
not today.

so here i am,
ranting and mumbling abt my horrible day,
thinking, it cannot possibly get any worse,
but, it jst mite,
afterall, the day's not over yet.

how am i? im fine, thank you.
=D

three spoons of sugar in a glass full of liquor

three spoons of sugar in a glass full of liquor,
is what i need to get over you.
im gonna need a whole lot of therapy to cure the sugar rush.
gimme something in my coffee
gimme thrills, take my money,
i cant get over you.

we cant fake the way we feel,
we were born to keep it real.