tears are words the heart cant express

i have to disagree with elton john,
when he melodiously muttered the words,
sorry seems to be the hardest word.

sometimes we need to hold our head high,
blink back the tears
and just say goodbye,
which is in my opinion,
the hardest word among million others in the dictionary.

ive lost one too many people,
especially since i began a whole new life here in melbourne.
as i think back on the days,
n looked once again at the photos taken,
altho only two, three years back,
feels as if it was a whole other life.
as i reminisce,
n smile as flashes of our past memories appear in my mind,
i cant help but feel sad.

year after year,
as time passes,
things change.
even if u dnt want them to,
there are things,
that are js way beyond our control.
sometimes we drift apart for no known reason,
sometimes we are separated by geography,
sometimes the things said,
r jst too painful,
to the extent that all hope is lost in rekindling our friendship.

since then,
new bonds have been formed,
new words have been spoken,
new experiences have been experienced,
and new memories have been engraved in my mind.

much has changed,
n i am content with my life.
altho, ive lost some, ive made awesomely wonderful,
n i kno,
true friends,
whom, hopefully ill nvr have to say that one awfully painful word to.
n i thank u all from the bottom of my heart,
i cant even imagine,
how id survive without.

however,
i cant afford to lose another friend.
not you.