black roses

even the luscious red roses had turn into ashes,
as the sun blazes on this hot, summer day.

back frm work,

n for d first time,

ive decided to try to study at home,

cos it's too hot n i cant b stuffed walkin al d way dwn to d city.

the weekend was wonderful.

after a productive, satisfying day in d state lib,

i headed right across to melb central to meet jian shen.

we talked for quite a bit,

various, very interesting topics came up.

really made me wonder.

are we all helpless and ignorant when it comes to change?

are we who we really think we are?

what can we expect for ourselves in the future?

but one thing that I realise after one of our many conversations,

was that,

im probably more full of hatred than I let myself believe.

a very interesting, sensitive fella.

after 4 hrs of deep, emotional talk,
we watched a brainless but really fun movie.
yes, man.

well, it wasnt totally brainless,

it did hav a very good point,

which also got me thinking.

maybe i hav too much free time.

or actually,

im using my time not for what im supposed to be doing.

owh wellsss....

a very funny movie,

work today was soooo much better,
altho i still felt the 'im angry n pissed' vibe frm elena this morn.
afta being very, very careful n payin absolutely full attention to my work,
rather than singing in my head,
today's experiment turned out really well.
even with the stuff-ups, we jst laughed it out.
n we've all established, one very true, non-arguable fact,
i am a very clumsy girl.

what's life if you cant learn to laugh at yourself.

it looks like, the roses will be blooming from now on in.

smiles.