deja vu

ive got this really funny feeling.

it's a little odd,
but not unfamiliar.

the uncanny mix of
fear, anxiety, and excitement

it's actually happening,
and a lil sooner than id wished for it to be,
cos id hate to have to leave home.

the uncertainty is killing me.
stepping onto a foreign land,
not knowing anyone there,
no one i can call to say im here!
no one waiting for me near my room.

ive had this feeling before,
it's really very unsettling.
always at the back of your head.
and there's nth i can do abt it jst yet.

to make it temporarily stop bothering me,
i keep telling myself that,
i was only 16 when i first stepped foot on melb,
n did the whole thing from scratch.
it wasnt all too bad.
and now, hopefully, im a lil wiser n matured (or am i?).
it'll be easier.
i dnt know.

i gues only time will tell.

it really is,
a whole new world.