keep feeding it, til it cant hold in any longer

cause it's easier to breakdown n cry,
n that s wat id lov to do right now,
to just let it all out,
but i cant.
cos i cant afford to.

i cant cry even if i wanted to.
for one of 2 reasons:
im too tired to even shed a tear,
i shudnt wallow in self pity, n get right to it,
cos the clock is ticking.

so what is a gal to do,
at a time like this,
press it down,
and feed it more information,
hide it behind more duties,
cover it with more responsibilities,
to everyone and everything else,
except herself,
and of course, mask it with a smile.
and only when time permits,
let it out.

unhealthy as it seems,
it works, so..
as for now,
ive just gotta suck it up,
hold it in.
n breathe.