fear not.

so it all boils down to a set of numbers,
that are now,
out of my control.

so in the meantime,
ive decided to take control of wat i can.
keeps my mind of wat i cant for awhile.

i realised today,
that for most of my life,
ive js sat bk,
n take things as they come,
n do wat im supposed to,
rather den wat i really want to.
for most of the time,
im too scared.

so ive decided to take control and overcome my fears.

im afraid of animals,
im gona hold one at a pet store.

im afraid of havin a meal alone in a restaurant,
and that s wat im going to do,
alone.

im afraid of being called crazy,
nah.. dat one's not true.
ppl alredi do.

im afraid to talk to a stranger on the train,
n now i will.

im afraid of getting too close to the ppl i care abt,
so im nt gona shy away when i feel we are abt to anymore.

im afraid to face the ghosts of my past,
so that's wat ill do.

im afraid to lose weight,
altho i kno that i really need to.
yea, weird one isnt it?
cos, it brings up too many memories that still haunts my every waking moment.
but im nt goin to let it anymore.

im afraid to tell them how i really feel,
for im afraid of being judged,
so im goin to confront them,
n be honest.

im afraid of being different,
but that's who i am,
n im not gona pretend im not.

simply because,
i can.