surprise surprise!!!

so,
ive had the most hectic, crazy couple of weeks.

as if a couple of tests and a couple of assignments werent enough to occupy my time,
i had to give a couple of "career talks" to a couple of Grades 1 n 2 classes,
as well as a whole hall of grades 5 n 6 students.
damn, that was scary!!!
n there were obvious n very diff reactions from the 2 grps....
d younger ones, were soooo excited, n i felt like,
wow! being a scientist prob isnt so bad, after all..
but then as i went on to the grades 5 n 6,
made me regret n feel sorry for all the lecturers n speakers i dint listen to.
it was so painful!
to make it worse,
ive gotta giv anotha one to the grades 3 n 4 nxt week.
i really cant rmb wat i told d kids... owh well...

the crazy, insane ABP meetings,
isnt really a good way to start the weekend,
but shoppin definitely is!!

i also met bill for d first time....
really cool, uber talkative, funny guy,
who js so happens to hav sooo many ex-s,
all nicknamed after food,
like popcorn, spaghetti n meatballs, scones...
true story....

a week later, when i wasnt arnd,
i found out,
that he points out to wat i giggle at.
n apparently, its almost at everyth as ive been told.
woops...

went to the art studio once again,
but this time oni ian was there,
it was different,
n strangely uncomfortable.
mayb i do prefer a big group altho its very tiring.

a good, hearty dinner at press club is also a very good way to start the weekend!
altho, we ordered oni a couple of tapas,
n desserts,
OMG! we were sooooo full....
ok, mayb i shud mention,
we ordered the dessert platter,
that was prob meant for 4!!
once again, woops!

i came home one day, to a very unexpected, shocking, uncomfortable, i dnt kno hw to respond msg. (enuff said)

n ive been spending more time w ppl i nvr tot i ever wud,
n ive learnt so much,
people r jus fullllll of surprises!
gues its true wat they say,
nvr judge a book by its cover.

n a weird mid aged guy approached me when i was at bailieu the otha day,
n started askin really weird, creepy questions,
followed by can i hv ur number,
to which i replied, sure,
and a string of random numbers dat popped into my head.
ive definitely learnt my lesson.
;)

n to top it all off!!!!
my dearest, crazy fren, dearly known as adlin!
decided we shud go for a hair modelling thingymajiggy.
so we did. without knowing wat to expect.
in my mind, i started imagining a room full of 6 feet size zero blondes,
n i was like.. damn! wat hv i gotten myself into,
oni to step into an empty room, w a couple of ladies who very kindly approached us, n explained wat it's all abt, n chose a hairstyle for us!!
cant wait!
n its always fun to hav my dear study buddy stay over...
makes goin to d library dat much more bearable!!!

but now,
i foresee,
a very dreadful, long, boring month ahead of me...
owh well,
hope im wrong!!

xoxo.

cos when it does,
it hurts like a bitch

fear not.

so it all boils down to a set of numbers,
that are now,
out of my control.

so in the meantime,
ive decided to take control of wat i can.
keeps my mind of wat i cant for awhile.

i realised today,
that for most of my life,
ive js sat bk,
n take things as they come,
n do wat im supposed to,
rather den wat i really want to.
for most of the time,
im too scared.

so ive decided to take control and overcome my fears.

im afraid of animals,
im gona hold one at a pet store.

im afraid of havin a meal alone in a restaurant,
and that s wat im going to do,
alone.

im afraid of being called crazy,
nah.. dat one's not true.
ppl alredi do.

im afraid to talk to a stranger on the train,
n now i will.

im afraid of getting too close to the ppl i care abt,
so im nt gona shy away when i feel we are abt to anymore.

im afraid to face the ghosts of my past,
so that's wat ill do.

im afraid to lose weight,
altho i kno that i really need to.
yea, weird one isnt it?
cos, it brings up too many memories that still haunts my every waking moment.
but im nt goin to let it anymore.

im afraid to tell them how i really feel,
for im afraid of being judged,
so im goin to confront them,
n be honest.

im afraid of being different,
but that's who i am,
n im not gona pretend im not.

simply because,
i can.