because at this point,
all i want to do is breakdown

2 weeks till...

things change,
people change..
guess we ve jst gotta change with the changes.

it sucks, but it happens.

'cos i'm just a little bit tired.

im tired of all ur stories,
listening to u whinge n whine,
abt sth that is so petty.

im tired of all ur bullcrap,
treating others like shit with absolutely no respect for anyone,
and not good enough for u.

cos u kno y,
ure even more pathetic than anyone i kno.
u walk around as if u own the world,
but u kno, the world is against u,
but cos i feel sorry for u, i stick around and i stand up for u,
even when everyone, yes everyone is tellin me to stay away from u.

im tired of being the shoulder to cry on,
for all of u,
listening to all ur sob stories,
which really, is nt all that sad,
bcos, mind u, there are ppl worse off than u.
that's y we're al in this course,
i tot all of u wud kno better,
but i guess not.

crying over little petty things,
oh grow up!
ure all like close to a decade older than me,
yet im the one givin u advice.
n at the same time, ure all judging me saying im too young
to be good enough.
erm, fuck you!
at least i dnt cry over being a lecture behind,
or cos i usually get to go home every weekned but not this weekend.
or cos my bf doesnt call me.
fuck you, i only get to see my family once a year,
yet i dnt complain about it all the time
altho i miss damn like crazy
just suck it up n harden uP!

and besides,
where r u when i need u?
not one of u sons of bitches.
n u say ure my frens.

erm.. if u kno al the complicated medical terms,
it's just a wee bit sad,
if u dont kno the simple definition of a friend

Im tired of all the backstabbing
and false pretenses and lies.

ladies and gentlemen,
newsflash: we're not in high school anymore.

please wake up,
step out of ur little fantasy
and back into reality,
thank you very much.

they come in threes

Red Week, Red Party,
Companion House,
Trip to Wollongong,
Things to organise in the next 2 weeks.

PAL Paper,
Prac Exam,
Ethics Application for Research Project,
All due in 2 weeks time.

I can now, literally say, there's not nearly enough hours in the day.

Plus,
The 3 people Ive gotten closest to since I moved to Canberra,
Really have shown that you are truly on your own in this world.

Well, you know what they say,
they all come in threes.

How am I going to survive the next two weeks,
I dont know.

fucking FML!

am fucking exhausted!!!
can SOMETHING, just ANYTHING work out right, for once, please!
thank god for semester 'break' in a week!

n by break i mean, time to catch up on all the work!

I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes and leap!

but yet, she s still silently screaming out loud.

where's the balance?

just a little bit longer.

cos it's been awhile since ive blogged.

i truly apologise,
but it's simply cos,
we had an assignment,
that basically required us to "blog" if i may say so.
so now that that's been handed in,
i shall resume my rants here.....

so its been a hell of 3 months,
the first half is almost coming to an end.
it's gone by pretty damn fast,
n so much has happened! i dnt even kno where to start

but all i can say is,
ive made sum really good frens since ive been here,
n i hav no idea hw to repay them.
im, oh so grateful.

its been a pretty rough week,
with all that s been happening,
it felt almost as tho sumone s stabbed me numerous times,
revived me, jst so they cud stab me summore.

but sth happened today,
n all i can say is,
when u think that life's throwing u all kinds of shit,
n u dun even kno where to start pickin urself up,
just hold on a lil longer,
cos sth even better is jst waiting for u arnd the corner.

i really do believe, there s only a finite amount of bad for a person.
so pretty soon that will run out,
n it ll b all uphill frm there.

optimistic? perhaps. but it's true.

it's a very funny world we live in.

is it wrong that I'm afraid to fall asleep?